I'm frustrated and I feel like I'm a disappointment to my family.

I bitch about it here because I can't talk to anyone about it. I don't have anyone to talk to. Even those I might consider, I'm sure, don't want to hear about it. Nobody cares.

So this is not really a happy birthday at all.

I did successfully make a pineapple upside-down cake for the first time, though, so that's...something.

Time to close myself off again.